We Should Talk About Adam
If I do not call it ____, does it change what happened? If what happened changes, is he still a ___ist? If he is in fact a ___ist, is he still a good man? Is he still a good man if he ____d me? If a good man ____d me and then he died, am I still allowed to be angry? If I am still angry at the good dead ___ist, have I actually healed? If I have not healed from a ____ that happened sixteen years ago, am I still the child? If I am still the child, and the ___ist is still dead, can I still hold on to the thought of him with clenched fists? If the ____d child clenches his fists too hard, is he still able to let go? If the child can never let go of being ____d, does he ever forget? If the child can never forget his ___ist but does not have the language to name him, can he ever tell anybody he was ____d? If the child never tells anybody he was ____d, did it still happen? Did it still happen if the child does not know to call it ____? If it still happened, and the child does not call it ____, does it change the child? If the child changes and the ___ist dies anyway, is the child still a survivor? Is the child still a survivor if he does not know to call it what it is?
Originally published in Wailing and Gnashing: https://www.wailingandgnashing.com/
